20051121

my pithy tribute to an amazing man. . .

have you ever met someone that you automatically feel like you've known you're entire life? his presence puts your heart at rest? you see, i met this guy once a long time ago. . .

he makes me feel alive. he makes me feel beautiful. he makes me feel feminine and safe. he makes me feel like i could say the weirdest thing imaginable and he wouldn't walk away. he makes me want to believe that i might possibly BE beautiful!

i miss him. . .a lot and it makes me terribly sad to think that he's gone. my heart hurts physically and my mind can't fathom what this means in reality. i can't call anymore when life gets rough? no more naps in front of the fire place? no more late night conversations smoking in front of the fire? no more camping in seward?

nobody can take your place. there's been no one that knows the inside of the trenches we've seen better than you and i. you transcended my heart and spoke into my soul. you spoke my language in love, in music, in life.

i miss you more than words can say, deeper than the most eloquent poet can describe. . .all i'm left with is. . .

i miss you

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who would have thought the road i was once on would lead up to this corner of the earth....God never ceases to amaze me with His beauty and deliberate attempts to recapture my heart....He haunts me and has let me find Him up here....He is wild, so wild....